I hope all of you have had an amazing summer, I've had a few rough patches and had to focus on myself a bit. It left me unmotivated to write anything that didn't feel forced. It has always been really important to me to remain extremely honest online, it's just who I am, and how I'll always be. It's about inviting you into my life, and it leaves me being very vulnerable at times - but it's worth it if it helps others.
This past summer I went through many personal battles, as well as struggles with my music. It's frustrating, but bittersweet, when business gets in the way of my art. Looking back on the last few months, I can see how much I've grown and the things I was fighting for starting to show up in the best ways. You never realize in the moment of struggles that you have to go through these things to come out the other side a better person, and I have never felt more inspired.
My job, and my life is not easy - I never want people to think my life is perfect, it's not!
Being that I like to live in the present and not in the past, this is where I'm at and where I'm going to in the future.
I'm currently working in Miami modeling. I just signed with Elite Models (Yay!) and I have been really busy with that. Summer is notorious for being slow with work, so it's exciting to be working every single day again. I truly am the happiest when I'm busy, each day is different and it makes me happy. This business is very difficult, and competitive - but in the end when I've booked the job, it's all worth it. My biggest lesson I learned this past summer is to stay humble, thankful and always stay true to myself. I think that's a lesson I am constantly re learning, and if I remember that - nothing else really matters. If it's meant to be, it will be. Always. There are jobs i've missed out on just didn't book, and it's tough. The hate/love I have with social media, allowing me to be here communicating with you now, but also adding extra stress through comparison. My family is amazing, they support me every single day by pushing me forward and remaining positive.
In the next month or so, I'm heading to New York! It's a huge step forward, and I'm really excited about this. It's the ultimate pay off for all the work I've put in this past year. Fingers crossed I get signed with a New York agency, it's where every model wants to be. I know I will find myself in some amazing opportunities while there, and the fact that I'm being given a chance to go and try is absolutely amazing!
Now onto my favorite thing: music.
I released my new single in May! You can listen to it here: https://soundcloud.com/kaysleecollins
The response was really positive, which was exciting. This is the first time I really feel like I have come into my own as a musician. After the summer battles, I'm so excited and inspired to get back in and finish this project. I really dream about singing live, and being on stage. I think thats where I am most myself, and feel like my best self. I have plans to do some live shows around Los Angeles after I am done in New York, and there might be talks of a music video coming very soon.
Balancing modeling with singing is definitely a struggle, but one I am so ready to tackle! I've gotten back to writing, and reflecting on everything I have overcome this last summer, I can't wait for you to hear it.